last week i wrote a couple of really cool things — songs that say exactly what i want to say, line by line, from beginning to end. they feel complete, they tell a whole story, they say everything i want to say and nothing i don’t, and they don’t leave anything out.
this, of course, has led to a bunch o’ frustration with this week’s work: going back over half-written songs to finish up and fill holes take the lyrics to another level and then get the vocals done. the problem is, some of these songs have lines that i love, that sing well and sound great, but that don’t really say what i want them to say. or there are lines that i need as a literary transition but don’t sound good. or there are whole verses that resonate emotionally but i’m not sure what they hell they’re even talking about, and when i put something more direct in there they just ring hollow. or there are songs that only really tell half the story, and i’m left with either crowbarring a third verse in there, or forcing more narrative into the bridge than i want (usually i like a bridge to be a kind of single-idea eruption).
all of this is to say, it’s the rare song that rings perfect with its writer. and often it’s these perfect songs that other people don’t really get (except when they do get them and really love them, which is enormously gratifying). but i’m getting close. i’m determined to finish. andy’s been quite sick (i won’t say deathly ill, but close) and i’m not sure what it’s gonna to our schedule, but i will say that i think this record is going to be really good…