in 2005, paul finally realized that the hard core black lab fans were not only here to stay, but were deeply interested in the machinations taking place behind the curtain – how songs got written, how tracks got recorded, and how such randomness could coalesce (or not) into the latest black lab album.looking to find a way to make the stuff he was constantly generating available, he hit upon the notion of an online magazine, a monthly zine available by subscription that would put out a new mp3, photos, bloggage, gossip and sneak previews in each issue. alas, the club became mostly what it’s title suggested: an mp3 every month, with lyrics and a few pics and hopefully some insight into what the hell was going on in black lab world.for four years he churned out the club, grateful to those who laid down their precious digital cash for subscriptions. the mp3’s included everything from live writing recordings working out lyrics to rough mixes of songs about to be released on the latest album – and everything between. some of it was good, some of it was really good, and some of it probably should have stayed buried in the stacks of cds and cassettes and harddrives from which they had been mined.this collection seeks to take the best stuff and make it all available in one convenient, affordable place. it includes single-mic live recordings of just voice and guitar, rough demos from the early days, and polished tracks of more recent vintage. most of the demos have been cleaned up and given fresh, never-heard new mixes and mastering, bringing out the best of what’s there while leaving the emotion-cracked character in among the rough edges.in addition, there are two tracks featuring songs that may or may not make it onto the next black lab album. you can get it from itunes, or you can buy a cd or download from us and get an additional track from the club as a bonus.

track listing
01 walk this road free download
02 mercy
03 let it shine
04 radio tonight
05 criminal
06 a new world
07 trace
08 candlelight
09 give it all
10 someone else
11 don’t ask me why
12 my favorite part of town
13 kick
14 shine

lyrics

walk this road. tell me how you found me 
and I’ll tell you how I lost the way. nightingales surround me 
waiting for the flicker of day. 
and I want it back, I want it back. 
trail along the insides. 
the pleasure found in drowning 
it fades, it fades. I walk this road, this road. 
what else can I do?
 I walk this road, this road
. settle on the moon with you. give me all your hours
. add them up to days and weeks 
with all your superpowers
. there’s a few too many kisses on the cheek 
and I want it back, I want it back. 
betrayal on the insides. 
picture perfect magic. 
it fades, it fades. I walk this road, this road. 
what else can I do?
 i walk this road, this road
. settle on the moon with you
 with you.

mercy. I can see you laughing 
after you’re gone and I’m alone. 
laughing at the things you lost 
happy to have paid the cost. and I can see you waiting
 after years of separation. 
waiting on a platform
for a train I won’t be on. and the future is now. 
in the eyes of my mind
 I want to be there somehow
. can’t bear to leave you behind 
at the mercy of time. I can see you’re pregnant 
sucking on a tall boy and a cigarette
. oh I want to be there 
run my hands through your blonde hair. and I can see you lonely 
standing at the side of a freeway 
trying to catch a break. 
a ride that takes you all the way. and the future is now. 
in the eyes of my mind
 I want to be there somehow. 
can’t bear to leave you behind
 at the mercy of time.

let it shine. walking on a cloud, I’m stepping through the air, yeah! even on the ground, I can feel it everywhere. standing in the wind, it’s giving me hope. yeah hope. walking in the wind, see how far we go. let it shine, let it shine, let it shine. come and let your big light shine. let it shine, let it shine, let it shine. oooh oooh oooh. let it shine, let it shine, let it shine. come and let your big light shine. let it shine, let it shine, let it shine. come on and let it take you high. let it shine, let it shine, let it shine, yeah yeah yeah. come on and let it take you high.

radio tonight. and the air is full of sound and stories that I lost broadcasts that I found on the stations of my cross. now the music falls like rain it pools around my knees but the paper’s soaking wet and the pen does not receive. so I’m pleading for a light cause the words won’t come out right. on the radio tonight, the radio tonight. radio tonight. with all these broken toys I can’t come out and play .the songs are all alike since the frequency got changed but my heart has burst a seam. I overflow with dreams and my memory doesn’t dim. this silence is a sin so let the blood antennae rise. keep the dust out of my eyes when the words don’t come out right on the radio tonight. radio tonight. I try to look away from the things I don’t know how to say. I’m staring into space I can’t see what listens when I pray. I’m spitting in the wind. I wrack my head again but the signal’s just a roar. it’s all been said before so I swim against the tide. I rage against the light but the words don’t come out right on the radio tonight. radio tonight.

criminal. you pull your hair, you hold your breath. when you’re lost in your mind. you lead me on now there’s nothing left. yeah you wasted my time. the more you change the more the ache just stays the same. you break and enter everyday. yeah you rob me blind. I want you bad, I want you bad. I know you’re criminal, baby I want you bad, I want you bad. I know you’re criminal, criminal. and I know you take. but you only want what you can’t have. I want you bad, I want you bad. I know you’re criminal, baby. the broken door, the shattered glass. from when you stole my heart I gave it slow but you took it fast. there in the dark the more I change the more the hunger stays the same. I’ve given everything I have. I know who you are. it’s in the way again you hold me in your eyes. I’m in your way again it comes as no surprise. and it’s the only thing that keeps me sane. it’s keeping me alive. it’s the way…

a new world. there is a child buried alive in my chest. 
there is a stranger makes himself home in my bed
. and I don’t believe even what I can see for myself
. I can see for myself 
through the bars of this cell. everybody wants to find a new world. 
everybody’s searching for a sign. 
everybody wants to find a new world. 
why can’t I find mine?
 why can’t I find mine? make me a mountain of silver and gold and I’ll stop. 
make me a box of velvet and pine and I’ll drop. 
ask me to live what I know see. I choke and I cough
 yeah I choke on my scotch. 
can’t you see that I’m lost even when the grass burns black I’m waiting for it. 
and even when you won’t turn back I’m waiting for it
. and even when my vision cracks I’m waiting for it
. I’m waiting for it
. I’m waiting for it. everyday is tender as a sunburn
. I wandered down the hillside to the crossroads. I let myself be harnessed to this spaceship.

trace. hey, are you there. are you the one who brought me here. ’cause now that I need you. I need to see you. I need to feel you here in the air. it’s all that I want. so hold me close again. if I can’t understand well I promise I’ll try to pretend. it’s all ok. I will love you till my dying day. and if I look hard at your face it’s not hard to forget that you left without leaving a trace. it’s a wonder. it’s a blessing and it cuts me to the bone. but you know I ain’t bitter no I wouldn’t trade it. I’m just missing you and all of the time gone by. so hold me close again if I can’t understand well I promise I’ll try to forgive.

candlelight. you never got high, did you? I never knew if you wanted to. I used to watch you walk across the alley and down you block. and I heard you cry at night watched you set yourself on fire. a ghost among the trees you haunted me at my back door. you found what you were looking for was gone but your candlelight burns on. when everything’s gone wrong and it’s crashing down around you something that reminds you. your candlelight burns on. when the afterglow is gone. when you’re standing on the outside it’s burning on the inside. have you ever been stoned like this. have you ever felt so alive as this. will you make love to me. better than it used to be cause I remember your mama’s front porch. holding your body like a torch I could feel you breathe. I wanted you to rescue me but do you know you’ll never be alone cause your candlelight burns on. when the afterglow is gone and there’s no one left. to sing to someone who reminds you your candlelight burns on. when everything’s gone wrong and there’s no more happy endings. you’re happy just pretending your candlelight burns on.

give it all. I take one step one look, one breath. I come down brick by brick by brick. I run until I slip it. all comes down to this. if I give it all to you. if I fall in front of you. would you show me everything that lies beneath this black and blue. I’ll give it all to you my love. if I give it all to you. if I hand over what’s due. tear down the walls that rise and fall between the truth. I’ll give it all to you my love. I can see your backbone working reaching up for what it’s worth and these stars a million miles around us. they’re flying around us.

someone else. today’s like any day. easy to pretend some things never change. some things never end. your eyes like pictures of a war. I swear I’ve seen somewhere before. you watch, you wait like someone else. you smile, you shake like someone else. you remind me of someone else I thought I left behind me. they say you’re good with numbers. the padlock on the door. the curtains on the windows and hard wooden floors. I know, how can I ignore this sense. I’ve seen you somewhere before. you watch, you wait like someone else. you smile, you fake like someone else. you remind me of someone else. I thought I left behind me. I thought I left behind me.

don’t ask me why. could you be the girl in my sheets. wake me out of my sleep. make me wrap you around me. you just couldn’t keep to yourself. I should have been somebody else. somebody better who would never make it hell for you. don’t ask me. why don’t ask me. why I got nothing to say. I got nothing to say. don’t ask me why. don’t ask me why. why I push you away. cause I got nothing to say. picture me down on my back. everyone dressed up in black in a line walking by me. will you be there by yourself. will there be somebody else. somebody better who would never make it hell for you. don’t ask me why. don’t ask me why. I got nothing to say. I got nothing to say. don’t ask me why. don’t ask me why. why I’m walking away. cause I got nothing to say.

my favorite part of town. i’ve been awake for years been paying my rent with tears but i knew this day would always come. and even when things got bad living with my mom and dad i knew what i could become. and hey, we can live forever. we can find a way. and hey, we can live together. we’ll be ok. i’m going down. i’m going to my favorite part of town. if i lost my mind i could hold my head up high cause nobody’s on the other side. and nobody ever sees the bush that burns inside of me. i’m gonna show them this time. and hey, we can live forever. we can find a way. and hey, we can live together.we’ll be ok. Ii’m going down. i’m going to my favorite part of town.

kick. should I stay, should I go how should I know? I’m a fool, I’m a clown to ever let you down. and I finally found I get it after all this time. I get it I’m in love with the one who is everything that I want to be. and I will kick. I will fight it but I won’t ever walk away. and I will twist. I will try it but I won’t ever walk. I’ll never walk away. when you’re old and I’m dead I’ll be just memories in your heart, in your head. tiny pieces of me and I want them to be a good thing. I want to be a good thing for you, the one who shows me everyday what I could become. and I will kick. I will fight it but I won’t ever walk away. and I will twist. I will try it but I won’t ever walk away. so give me the bullet. I will bite it but I won’t ever walk away. now you’re the gold and when I find it I won’t ever walk. I’ll never walk away.

shine. even though you’re hungry. even though you’re tired. even when you sit alone in the light of the fire. even if you’re wondering how it all began. even if you’re broken and can barely stand. shine. shine. shine your light. shine. shine. even when winter has made it through the door. even when summer is burning through the floor. even when you’re wondering how it all will end. even when you’re broken and can barely stand


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