paul durham
ten million years:
songs from the nineteen nineties
four tracks of acoustic black lab, plus eleven tracks of folk-rock ambition — trying to put everything down at once, bare bones, with nothing to hide behind.with paul baker on bass, hershel yatovitz on guitar, and jim kassis on drums, paul durham tried to break new ground. in the end, he left in search of a big wall of guitar.this CD collects the mid-nineties recordings produced by acclaimed jazz producer lee townsend. it’s a riveting mix of folk and rock, cut through with with shards of country and jazz, and reveals the early impulses that led to black lab.ncludes the original versions of “time ago,” “dream in color” and “walk slow” (from the director’s cut of your body above me).

the cd also includes the acoustic black lab version of “wash it away,” late-night recordings of an acoustic-duo performance of “can’t keep the rain” and “sleeps with angels” by paul and his friend d.joseph; and the beautiful solo demo of “ten million years” that got paul his first deal with geffen. download “postcards” or “sleeps with angels (live)” for a taste.


track listing
with a band called durham
01 postcards free download : just right click & save
02 mary
03 run circles
04 something about
05 time ago ’92
06 the ghost tonight
07 dream in color ’93
08 walk slow
09 o’ maggie
10 sixteen
11 home
songs from the lab
12 wash it away (acoustic)
13 can’t keep the rain (live)
14 sleeps with angels (live) free download : just right click & save
15 ten million years (’95)

lyrics

postcards. green eyed boy on a farm town street got a ride to the coast, south by southeast ‘don’t worry about me no more’ met a girl in spain, so the postcards said there’s a little white house, a king size bed but he walked away like every time before and the loneliness was sneaking up behind him he’s gone and run somewhere he knows’ll never find him on african plains like he always said he would in foreign words he understood he signed his name ‘you don’t know what you’re missing’ but on the dusty road with hands cracked dry in the tall grass where the dogs are crying I, sometimes, wonder if he listens to the loneliness… and all he heard the preacher say was ‘live your life before it slips away’. so the postcards come to this old town and there’s less to read and more to imagine now but kids he grew up with and folks he loves we hold him, close enough I hope and I hope there’s someone with him & that the wind out where he’s talking blows behind him he’s gone and run somewhere he knows’ll never find him and the wind blows in the door gets shut a thousand times, if I’ve told them once. they don’t remember but he smiles at me he says hello there are people turned everywhere we go so how can I remember when it comes and it goes the wind blows in this empty room it comes too late and then it goes too soon (in the winter time, when it’s snowing the snow is all around us, falling all around us like ashes from the sky)

mary. mary’s a sweet thing. yeah, mary’s a saint boy’s all think it’s witchcraft but it ain’t it’s easy to define it, tell you what she’s got mary only wants the best and she gets what she wants so don’t you get carried away now don’t let it go to your head mary’s got the whitest hands but you don’t know where they’ve been yeah, you’re not the first boy and yeah she really makes ’em proud but if caution is a virtue, son you better pray out loud it’s too late, too high, too hard to try wait till your ship comes in yeah, mary you’ll sell you what you want to buy and tell you it’s a sin

run circles. so lay down beside me and tell me a tale like ghosts in the attic or wind in a sail nobody told me it’s fine if you come as you are nobody missed me before and I swear that I don’t wanna run circles don’t run me away don’t let yourself tell me this ain’t gonna change someday I don’t wanna run circles with a heart as black as the waves well I been to the bottom and things are different today follow the footsteps down to the sand get you a bucket and a shovel and you’ll understand pour me some water. the water is wine in my cup I been to the bottom but now I’ve come up and I swear that I don’t wanna run circles don’t run me way don’t hold it against me the circle is open today don’t talk about true love like it’s something that you understand don’t find yourself searching for what’s in your hand

something about. so slip it to me slowly underneath the door I used to like the way you walk girl but I don’t anymore there was skin I longed to touch in that well worn hay but something about the way you looked made it worth giving away it was something about what you had what you held when you brung me down to the depths it was something about what you took when you ran when there was nothing left of me I got no regrets. I’d do it all again dress in white on a sunday night it was sweeter than any sin there was shadows in the valley there were places I could hide there was light coming around me taking me for a ride take what you like. take what you already own take what you like. take what you find take what you’ve sated cause it was something about

time ago ’92. I watch your window for hours the moon has set down without us all by ourselves riding in the front seat watch the sun come up all by ourselves we would run remember it was so long ago. remember, baby it was a long time ago feel your hands close behind me hear the highway behind me all by ourselves we made love under the sleeping moonless night all by ourselves we would ride I couldn’t stop you crying or keep myself from fighting back I tried but never hard enough don’t you remember, love? all by myself I can see it like it’s right before my eyes all by myself time goes by remember?

the ghost tonight. there’s a girl I remember well. I don’t need reminding there’s a dream repeating itself yeah, I remember when I hear her say ‘this isn’t going away tomorrow or the next day’ like a thorn in my side. the sight of you tonight I don’t need reminding by the ghost tonight coming for me. listen it’s a dream that I don’t understand and when the sun goes down on me this time it takes me back again it’s been a year. I slept it away I believe the madness time flies just the same and I am not angry but I dream this dream and it’s more than it might seem (more & more) like a thorn in my side. the sight of you tonight take a walk along the border of sleeping and awake between the night and the beginning of the day she slips away I don’t need reminding by the ghost tonight

dream in color ’93. kiss me once just once you think it’s love or something close I don’t recall I know I was sleeping I just never saw but there were nights I swear we flew dreaming in color, dreaming beside you now the sky has gone to grey and the colors have bled in this picture we made ask me once. just once well they ring them bells they’re throwing rice at you and me but it wasn’t enough say what more could I be so sleep all day and watch tv all night the pictures play in black and white I close my eyes. I close my eyes

walk slow. well there’s smoke from underneath the bed like her father’s eyes touching her instead and just around ten the lights low she cuts her hair, she’s walking slow I know she’s walking by herself so go on walk by now there’s nothing left to wait around for this time go on walk slow now there’s nothing left to wait around for when you’re falling out. falling down there’s a cross that hangs above the gate are the ties that bind old enough to break she covers her eyes covers her mouth north carolina headed south I know she’s walking by herself and the trees bend down where she goes and the river gods are waiting down below and I shut my eyes shut mouth shut my heart gotta cut it out I know she’s walking by herself

o’ maggie. maggie takes the rum from her bag and slides it through the bars she’s thinking about the letters in the box buried in the yard she don’t ever want his kindness she don’t want the shame no, maggie takes the high road and looks the other way she met him on a city bus bloodstains on his hands now he calls these pale prison walls the home they never had she’s just passing on her way. a satellite but she was waiting downtown. she said she waited all night o’ maggie may. o’ maggie take as much as you can drink then put the rest away I won’t have to think about the pain if you come home today and he says ‘you talk about leaving but it ain’t that different to say that I could tear these walls down o’ maggie may it’s raining inside of maggie and me rain as high as the river is deep dream don’t worry about the weather rain in the san antonio streets it’s raining inside of maggie and me as high as she’s deep

sixteen. if just once before you died behind these seeing eye dog eyes I felt something somehow but it doesn’t really matter now I wake up late again I can’t make them understand that I am different than before but it doesn’t really matter anymore to the great earth the great sun the great big reasons why you did what you’ve done jude says she gets cold with you not there I got no idea of where you been or who I’m supposed to call but it doesn’t really matter it doesn’t matter at all and the snow burns me and the cold covers me and I know I know you don’t want me or the great earth the great sun the great big reason why it’s the only thing that’s keeping you young the great earth. the great big sun you’ll never walk as far as you can run

home. what is ship worn? what is overboard? why you say you’re a movie star from a foreign shore? you like to pretend. I like to believe. you like to spend a lot of money you like to live beyond your means but there’s a simpler way of dealing with the pain drag the bottom of the barrel with your fingernails tie me off peel away the skin above the bone slip the needle in and send me home it’s already dead. it’s already done. this sad old life is over or it hasn’t yet begun answer questions with your overblown lies yeah you prance like a dragqueen while I shudder in disguise what is white trash? what is underclass? how can I get a piece of that? I want it bad yeah you like to pretend. I like to believe you like to spend a lot of money you like to live beyond your means

wash it away (acoustic). wash it in the sea, let it soak all night wash it in the sea, let the saltwater wash it away soak it in bleach, till it’s white on white soak it in bleach till the blood just washes away hang it in the wind, let it blow all night hang it up high, let the high wind blow it away hang it in the wind, let the sun burn bright hang it in the wind till the blood just washes away I have waited wasted years for the child that’s come and gone today I have wasted all this fear how can I just turn and wash it away if I can then I will, then I will wash it away if she can then she will wash it away forty years spent one by one forty years of blood just slipping away what I’d give for a firstborn son forty years of blood just washing away I have waited wasted lives I have waited long enough I’d say say what about this wasted child how can I just turn and wash it away so send me an angel send me the ghost that I was send me an angel send me the ghost that I was that I was that I am I will wash it away

can’t keep the rain (live duo). is there something you’d like to do tonight I got some bridges to burn I’d like to fly away tonight for whatever it’s worth keep the sun out of my eyes can you keep the heat in the air maybe I’m making the whole thing up maybe you’re not even there well I called your machine just to hear your voice I know you were listening when all I could hear was noise and all of the demons around my bed call your name like they want you dead but I can’t keep the rain from getting in I can’t keep the rain from getting in one more night yeah it’s pouring down again I can’t keep the rain from getting in one more night I set fire to the car tonight to keep from running away I needed something loud and bright to keep the memory at bay yeah sometimes I shout a lot there’s things I know how to say sometimes I get scared. I get carried away well I call your machine just to hear the sound hang in the air as I walk around

sleeps with angels (live duo). she sleeps with angels way up high in the air she sleeps with angels she got angels in her hair and they call her gabrielle from the way that she sings oh lover come you gotta get you some wings she sleeps with angels in the sky sleeping with angels you can’t help get high alright when your bag get heavy baby lay down your load get on your hands and knees and do like you been told you can ask for more, ask for less or you can sleep forever in that big feather bed with the angels in their long white robes sleeping with jesus, lord, sleeping with job alright sleep with the angels, mama never look back sleep with the angels while the sky turn to black sleep under ladders on the tracks of a train well sleeping in the clouds won’t keep you out of the rain alright

ten million years ’95. it seems a simple thing when I’m by myself I never feel this way with no one else I have nightmares I have dreams of you gone there is something in you I want I know I love you more than I should I would wrap my heart in bands of rosewood I love you more than I should I would stay beside you here ten million years so hide the bones away way down deep beneath the yellow lines too scared to think of what you give or might lose is it more than you would choose? every minute every day I live I try and get as much as I can give so if you find me underneath the wheel don’t think that I don’t feel I feel I love you more than I should

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