I’m doing a little gig in seattle this weekend for a friend’s nonprofit and I’m psyched.
I’m also scared. somehow playing live, just me and my acoustic and my two hands — which I find utterly unreliable when it comes to fingering the right chord and strumming with correct intensity at the appropriate time related to what I’m singing — is still a huge challenge for me, even after all these years.
I used to get genuinely terrified. now I’m just nervous and uncomfortable and dismayed by my imperfections. probably why I gravitate towards the studio, where I have an infinite more degree of control. it’s not that I don’t recognize the magic that only happens in live performance. it’s just that the whole thing makes me squirm. which, I suppose, is why I need to do it more.
hope to see you this saturday.